Posts tagged future.
The future is dreadful. I’m stressing over things I have no control over. I’m paralyzed, staring blankly into space. And I slipped. My mind is muddled with countless thoughts I can’t seem to fathom that I fear I may lose control. My psyche is all messed up, as depression and anxiety try to take over. I am strong, I know, but I don’t know how much longer I can keep fighting. I can take it one day at a time, fight it battle by battle, but for how long? And if I slip again, if I lose, what then? Ah, if only resolution can be found in sleep. :|
People are always shouting they want to create a better future. It’s not true. The future is an apathetic void of no interest to anyone. The past is full of life, eager to irritate us, provoke and insult us, tempt us to destroy or repaint it. The only reason people want to be masters of the future is to change the past.
Greedy for life, we forget in body and soul our hopes for the future until reality teaches us that tomorrow is not what we had dreamed, and we discover nostalgia.
People want pretty much the same things: They wanted to be happy. Most young people seemed to think that those things lay somewhere in the future, while most older people believed they lay in the past.
To be hopeful in bad times is not just foolishly romantic. It is based on the fact that human history is a history not only of cruelty, but also of compassion, sacrifice, courage, kindness.
What we choose to emphasize in this complex history will determine our lives. If we see only the worst, it destroys our capacity to do something. If we remember those times and places—and there are so many—where people have behaved magnificently, this gives us the energy to act, and at least the possibility of sending this spinning top of a world in a different direction. And if we do act, in however small a way, we don’t have to wait for some grand utopian future.
The future is an infinite succession of presents, and to live now as we think human beings should live, in defiance of all that is bad around us, is itself a marvelous victory.